A Very Sad Day...

IMPORTANT NOTE!!!! This post was originally written back in May; however, for some reason, I never posted it. I don't know if it was an error, or if my heart just couldn't press the submit button. As if it would make it all a "reality" that it was really, really true. Some time has passed now and since I am feeling a lot better about the whole situation, I am just going to post. This was meant to be a tribute to my baby, Roxie, and to not post wouldn't be right.

I know, I know....the last post was April 17th of which I stated "I'll get my Project 365 updated" AND as you can see, it's not!

I don't know what in the heck I find it so hard to sit my butt down and upload my photos. I have still taken at least one photo per day! So I have kept my end of the bargain there, I just need to get it together and get these photos posted!!!

At the end of the year I intend to have a scrapbook made showing all the photos; however, the purpose of the blog was for me to journal about WHY I took each photo. What did it mean to me at the time? Fortunately, I just looked through all of the photos I have taken and for the most part, I am able to journal about them all. There might be one or two that were just taken "Just Because."

I think that is why I find it hard to update this blog. It's the journaling that takes up the most time. No matter what, when all is said and done, this blog will have at least 365 photos at the end of the year. I can't even BELIEVE it's almost June. That is just way too crazy.

Yesterday, May 28, 2009, we lost a dear family member; her name was Roxie and she was my beautiful German Shepherd. She died very unexpectedly. She was ill a few weeks ago with what we thought was a bladder infection. The vet put her on anti-biotics and in a day or so she started to act normal again. Well, the night before last (the 27th) she started acting very strange. She wouldn't eat (and this girl LIVES to eat!), she was very lethargic, and she just looked as though she was staring off into space. Yesterday morning I kept an eye on her and it was very obvious she didn't feel well. I called the vet and they said to bring her in... by this time she wouldn't even get up and walk. She literally had to be carried to the car (which wasn't an easy task since she's 100 lbs). At the vet's office they came outside and brought her in on a gourney.

We were told that it was possible her "Stomach flipped" which is apparently normal for large dogs. The vet put her on an IV, gave her some pain medication, and said he would run some tests and call at 1:30 PM. When the phone rang at 11:25 am and the caller ID showed the vets office name/number my heart started pounding. I wanted to just let the phone ring, I didn't want to answer....but I did. Dr. G said, "I am so sorry but Roxie just passed about 5 minutes ago. She was in a state of shock when she came in and after some x-rays and an ultrasound, we found she had a basketball-sized tumor in her spleen or liver."

I could barely speak. How could this be? How could this go unnoticed?? She had been to the vet's office 2 times in the last 2 weeks... after settling down, it all started making sense. Roxie, who was only 7, started acting a bit strange over the last month. Of course we thought it was the bladder infection... she was peeing in the house, which she has NEVER, EVER DONE, she would walk up the stairs like she was 95 years old, she wasn't eating, etc. There was no way for any of us to know...

I am glad that Roxie is in a better place. I am glad that she is no longer in any pain. I know she had to have been miserable, she's just the type of dog who had a very high tolerance for pain.

She will always be in my heart. I love and miss you, my sweet Roxie-Mox!

Roxie
March 24, 2002 - May 28, 2009
Rest in Peace Baby Girl
I love you now and forever



Love Always,

Momma Carol, Candice, Josh, Corianna, and Katie